Tag Archives: strength

Strike back

I want to strike back. I want to gather my fear, my loss, my distress and my suffering – that whole great tangle of emotion and experience – into one big, dark, monstrous cloud and then unleash it as a … Continue reading

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The Work of Recovery

After the assault, I took a month’s annual leave. Ostensibly this was time to ‘recover’, to rest and recuperate. A necessary break from the stress and demands of ordinary life in order to focus my energy on surviving what had … Continue reading

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Emerging/Submerged/Reemerging

The past few days have been difficult ones. Yet again, terror and grief, anger and bewilderment have welled up within me and then broken over me spilling distress and hurt, unleashing panic and sweeping away calm with a decisiveness that … Continue reading

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The Anniversary

A year ago, today. That twelve months have passed, that a full year lies between that day and today, is both inconceivable and illogical to me. My lived experience of the past twelve months barely allows for a sense that … Continue reading

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Where to from here?

I have asked myself this question many times since December 10, ostensibly the final day of this blog. In many ways, 16 days gave me ample room to explore the impacts and effects of sexual assault, to develop and reflect … Continue reading

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Day 16. RESILIENCE

I wish there were a neat way to end this. I wish I could say ‘and then it got better’ or ‘and then it all went away’ or ‘and then she lived happily ever after’. But it’s not like that. … Continue reading

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